By Sandy Wilson
June 15, 2012
NO ONE WILL LISTEN.
NO LAWYER WILL ADVISE ME. NOT EVEN LEGAL AID.
NO ONE WILL ADVOCATE FOR ME.
YOU KNOW MY LABEL BUT YOU DO NOT KNOW ME AND THAT IS NOT FAIR!!!
I WOULD REALLY LIKE TO UNDERSTAND WHY IT IS THAT MY VOICE IS NOT BEING HEARD. WHY AM I NOT IMPORTANT? IS THIS BECAUSE MY MENTAL HEALTH IS IN QUESTION?
I AM BIPOLAR, YES, BUT IT IS NOT WHO I AM!!! IN MY OPINION, MY MENTAL HEALTH IS IN QUESTION BECAUSE OF EVERY SINGLE PERSON THAT TURNS THEIR HEAD, IGNORES MINE AND OTHERS EXPERIENCE, SAYS THEY CANNOT DO ANYTHING TO MAKE A CHANGE. ITS NOT JUST ABOUT ME, ITS ABOUT EVERY PERSON IN OUR PROVINCE LIVING WITH MENTAL
HEALTH. WE SHOULD HAVE SOMEWHERE WHERE WE CAN FEEL SAFE AND UNFORTUNATELY FOR US, THAT JUST IS NOT A REALITY.
MANY ARE LEFT WITH A LAST RESORT OPTION, DEATH BY ANY MEANS NECESSARY. ANYTHING HAS GOT TO BETTER THAN THE PERSONAL HELL THEY ARE CURRENTLY LOCKED IN WITH NO ONE AND NO WHERE TO TURN TO. IT JUST
SHOULD NOT BE THIS WAY FOR ANYONE!!
I HAVE A SON WHO IS AUTISTIC AND I WORK WITH PEOPLE WITH DEVELOPMENTAL DISABILITIES AND THEY ARE WHO I AM MOST CONCERNED
ABOUT. NOT ME, THEM!!!! THIS EXPERIENCE HITS WAY TOO CLOSE TO HOME FOR ME AND I JUST CANNOT FATHOM THE “WHY”.
I AM NVCPI TRAINED(NON-VIOLENT CRISIS PREVENTION
INTERVENTION) AND RESTRAINTS ARE SUPPOSED TO BE USED AS A LAST RESORT, SO WHY IS IT THAT IN MY CASE, THEY WHERE A FIRST AND FORCEFUL RESORT? IT IS SUPPOSED TO FEEL SAFE AND SECURE. AND YET I FELT VIOLATED AND TERRIFIED. WHY CAN I NOT SEE THE VIDEO FEED? FREEDOM OF ACCESS APPLIES TO ME TOO DOESN’T IT? EVEN
THE POLICE (43 DIVISION) WOULD NOT PRESS CHARGES AS I HAD PUT IN A REPORT, BECAUSE AS THEY HAD STATED, I HAD NO RIGHTS BECAUSE I WAS ON A FORM 1. BUT EVEN
PRISONERS HAVE RIGHTS, DON’T THEY.
WHY WOULD I BE ANY DIFFERENT OR ANY LESS? I AM A HARD WORKER, A RESPECTED MEMBER OF MY COMMUNITY WHO WORKED 40 HOURS A WEEK PRIOR TO THIS INCIDENT. I MADE A DECENT INCOME AND I MANAGED MY HOME WELL ALONG WITH MY HUSBAND. I AM A GREAT MOTHER, I HAD A BEAUTIFUL SPIRIT AND NOW I HAVE A SADDENED SOUL. I AM FIGHTING FOR MY LIFE AND I BELIEVE I DESERVE ANSWERS TO MY QUESTIONS. FOR EXAMPLE, WHY WAS I PUT ON A FORM 1 WHEN I VOLUNTARILY
CAME TO THE HOSPITAL FOR HELP ON MY OWN ACCORD? WHY WAS I RESTRAINED SO BRUTALLY? WHY DID I HAVE TO BE STRIPPED NAKED BY 6 MEN? DO YOU KNOW WHAT THAT FEELS LIKE? I WOULDN’T WISH THAT ON MY WORST ENEMY!
I WANT MORE THEN ANYTHING TO BE TREATED WITH RESPECT. TO BE HEARD. TO HAVE JUSTICE FROM INJUSTICE. TO HAVE
EQUALITY FROM INEQUALITY.
Proper training is in order. Security and nurses need to know FIRST HAND how to deal with vulnerable persons with little to no harm to themselves and the person they are restraining. Is this not the point of CPI training??? So what went Wrong with me?? I deserve to know!! How come I have not been told as of yet???
April 5,2012 I walked into rouge valley ajax hospital asking for help with my cycling mood swings and my severe migraine. Was admitted and put on form 1. Transferred to centenary hospital, still no meds yet to help calm and was refused a family member to come with me because visiting hours were over.
Once there, I was given a gown and told to put it on. I refused. Nurse demanded. I refused and threw the gown into the hallway. I asked for meds first,
then the gown. Instead she called security. 3 security and 3 nurses, grabbed me, handcuffed me, threw me tummy down on the floor, they stepped on my head, arms and feet and stripped off my pants, underwear too. I screamed and cried for them to please stop, telling them I was raped before, please stop and the security on stepped on my head even harder. After the incident, I was in complete shock and could not stop crying. They still did not bring me any meds for at least and hour longer. As a result of their forcefulness and negligence, My left ankle was fractured and my right wrist has ligament damage, as well as back, neck and shoulder pain.
I did try and resolve my dispute with rouge valley centenery hospital respectfully and through the right avenues. But as I was told by patient relations,
because of the stigma of bipolar disorder, I will never be heard. This is a clear violation of my human rights. I am currently filing papers with human
rights, or at least I am trying to get the motivation to do so. But after being literally kicked down and stepped on like garbage and told that I have
no rights by not only the hospital, but by the Police Department (43 Division), because although yes I do have a mental illness, it will NEVER define who
I am! It is unfortunate that the very healthcare system I trusted to “help” me through my crisis, instead took advantage of me and saw me as just another
patient, just a paycheck. This is disheartening and although they obviously do not care, they have forever altered my view on where I can turn to for help
and that is unfair!!!!
Apparently the cameras mounted in the room do not function for the purpose of recording anything and the cameras mounted in the hallway managed to
see me throw the gown into the hallway, however they saw nothing else relevant to my complaint. I have requested to see these tapes and have not been acknowledged..
IF VIOLENT RESTRAINTS SUCH AS WHAT OCCURRED WITH ME ARE TAKING PLACE, WHY ARE THEY NOT BEING RECORDED? WHO WILL SPEAK UP FOR THOSE WHO CANNOT SPEAK UP FOR THEMSELVES? I AM FORTUNATE TO BE ABLE TO SPEAK UP FOR MYSELF.
I STRUGGLE EVERYDAY WITH THE DARKEST CORNERS OF MY THOUGHTS .. EVERY TIME A LAWYER REJECTS MY CASE OR SOMEONE DOESN’T WANT TO ADVOCATE FOR ME .. I FALL DEEPER AND DEEPER INTO MY LONELY WORLD OF DEPRESSION. I UNDERSTAND WHY PEOPLE COMMIT SUICIDE, I REALLY DO. IF I DIDN’T HAVE MY SON AND THE PEOPLE I SUPPORT TO FIGHT FOR, I WOULD HAVE GIVEN UP A LONG TIME AGO.
WITHOUT MY FAMILY, I WOULD HAVE NO STRENGTH TO EVEN TRY
FAMILY – LIKE BRANCHES ON A TREE,WE GROW OUR SEPARATE WAYS BUT REGARDLESS OF HOW FAR APART WE GROW, WE WILL ALWAYS SHARE THE SAME ROOTS.